Bittersweet

My baby is such a big boy! It makes me so sad! Ever since he was born, he has been either rocked to sleep, slept with us, or parented to sleep in some way such as holding his hand. We have taken a lot of flack for it, but it has worked for us. It was a labor of love, though, because while we felt like it was good for building his confidence, independence, and self esteem, it took a ton of patience. There were nights where it was so tedious and difficult, and I would sit in his room and wish that he would just go to sleep on his own. Naptime has always been especially difficult. He would take a long time to calm down, and I would either sit in his room for 45 minutes trying to get him to fall asleep or take him for a drive until he fell asleep. So today at naptime, I asked him to lay in his bed while I finished doing something. I went in there a few minutes later, and he was asleep! I was in total shock because that has never happened before. At bedtime tonight, Jon and I each read him a couple of books, gave him hugs and kisses and daddy walked him back to his room. He said goodnight, and asked him to lay in his bed. No more than ten minutes later, he was out! I am just so surprised! I have been wanting this for so long, but now that he is doing it, I'm sad! I can't believe he wants to lay in there and doesn't need me. I know I am hormonal, but my baby is getting too big! I just hope that when the new baby comes, he doesn't feel like he has been banished back to his room to go to sleep alone.

Where has the time gone?

Wow, it has been a long time since I have updated. The days are just flying by! I am just a few days away from being 36 weeks along..... a point at which if you go into labor the doctors won't stop it because they baby is developed and ready to go! I am soooo ready for this kid to be here! I am really nervous about having 2 babies under 2 years old, but at the same time I am ready to have my body and my energy back! It is going to be a lot of fun to see Aiden interact with his new baby brother. I hope that if they learn nothing else from us, it is to always be there for each other and be good friends.

I am getting a little nervous for the actual delivery. I would love for it to happen at like 10 in the morning, that way Aiden can go play at Grama's or Auntie Courtney's for the day, eat dinner, and then daddy can come home and stay with him overnight. I am more worried about it being an easy transition for him than anything else! I guess I'm a little worried about the pain, too. :) Grammy is gonna be out here right around my due date and I can't wait for that! Although, this time it's only for 4 days :( When Aiden was born, it was summer so she was able to take off two weeks, which eventually got extended into 3! Either way, it is going to be good for Aiden to get to spend some time with her and also for her to be my extra set of hands!

Aiden is turning into such a little boy, and it is happening so fast! Everyday I look at him and it is getting harder and harder to see "baby" because he is pretty much all big boy now. He is starting to string words together. Like, "goodnight, mama" and "more milk, please". He tries sooooo hard to talk to us, and I feel bad because sometimes I can tell he is so frustrated trying to get the words out and he just can't! It is slowly coming, though, and it won't be long until he is a little blabbermonster :) With the weather getting better we spend as many afternoons outside as possible. He likes to ride in his little car and blow bubbles and kick his soccer ball. I scored an awesome play gym on Craigslist for $40 (yay) that is waiting to be built by daddy. It is going to be so nice to have that right in our backyard because this summer it is going to be a bit more difficult to get out for trips to the park.

Anyway, I guess that's all there is for now. Chances are, next time I get on here, it will be as a mother of two! Ahhhh!