What a horrible night

Christmas Eve was supposed to be so fun, instead it turned out to be one of the worst nights ever. We went to Jon's parent's house for Christmas Eve dinner and gifts. Aiden was starting to get antsy fairly early, so we decided to let him open a gift to play with. He went running to the tree and started to tear into the first gift he saw. It happened to be a gift for Charlie, so I grabbed shand, trying to prevent him from tearing it further. He was not happy about this, and proceeded to stand up and then throw himself backward, in true toddler tantrum style. I didn't let go of his hand because I didn't want him to smash his head into the ground. He ended up landing all twisted and not very happy about it. He has done this several times before, and I didn't feel anything wierd when he fell, so no one was concerned. He laid on the ground and stomped his feet and screamed, just like he always does when he throws a tantrum. Lately, after getting that upset, he just wants to be held and sit quietly with me. So, I took him into a dim bedroom and let him cuddle on my lap for awhile. He calmed down, but I noticed that every time I moved he would start to whimper. At first, I thought he was just tired and not wanting to be social, but then when I tried to hand him off to Daddy, he started screaming. We sat him on the couch and noticed his left arm pretty much hung limp. That's when I called the on-call doctor, and she said to take him into the ER. He was such a little trooper. He didn't cry at all, except for when his elbow was touched. I can't even imagine how much it probably hurt. When they took him in to do an xray, I had to stay out of the room because I am pregnant. I could hear him screaming from the hallway because they had to bend him arm. It is a sound that makes my stomach turn. Not long after, the doctor came in and said that his elbow had been dislocated. She did a quick little move where she held his elbow and bent his arm, bringing his hand up to his shoulder. He cried for a second, but then you could tell he felt immediate relief. The nurses brought in Christmas cookies and juice to entice him to move his arm. He was more than happy after that to snack on his cookies and flirt with the nurses. He spent the rest of the time there waving and "ho ho ho-ing" to everyone in the halls. I was so glad to see him better, but the guilt I felt from the entire thing was so horrible. No one wants to see their baby hurt, especially by their own hand, accident or not.